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If a friend started reading your journal today, what would you need to fill them in on so they could understand what you're writing about?

I haven't written in it today, but if they were to read what is already in it, I think I'd need to fill them in on a lot. *rubs forehead* A WHOLE awful lot xD You see, I don't really write in a story-coherent way. It's more like, "This is how I'm feeling..." every so often it's "This is what I'm learning..." and it is also heavily saturated in rants. - smiles slightly at the idea of someone trying to decode my journal -
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curious curious
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Do you think people deserve second chances?

A loud, definite, resounding YES.
If not - *shakes head*.....
I'd be dead. God allowed me to go through some stuff, but He never let me get out of control enough to deprive myself of life.
God led me through it, whether I knew it or not. And He has given me SO much more than I deserve. I cringe, and several emotions play, thinking of everything. Greatfulness. A certain kind of shame. Because I *know* I don't deserve it. It's almost painful, the shame and gratitude and a love all mixed together. I could cry just from the overwhelming impact of it all.

We're all 'entitled' to life, in a way. We come to think of it as a right that's just kind of there.
"You're alive!"
"Uhm, no duh?"

But for mine I've realized just how much I'm greatful for it. THANK YOU, God, for giving me two lives.

What I would've been missing...!!

I don't know if anybody will really understand this post besides myself.
But....-smiles-....even if you don't....just take it as a reminder to be overflowing with a feeling of being blessed - "just" for living.
Look at a tree and see the bark, the leaves, the veins. The colors. The strength.
It's not just a tree anymore.
Life is so much more than we give it credit for.

Current Mood:
grateful grateful
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below 40 = not girly
above 40 = girly
above 55 = paris hilton equal

[x ] My fingernails/toenails are almost always painted.
[x] During the summer pretty much the only shoes I wear are flip flops
[x ] My favorite toy as a child were barbies.
[x?] My favorite color is pink or purple. (depends on what mood I'm in as to which color in the world I like most :3 )
[ ] I did Gymnastics.
[x] I love skirts/shorts.
[ ] Hollister is my favorite place to shop.
[ ] Tight jeans are the only jeans Ill wear.
[x] I love chocolate.
[ ] I straighten my hair.
[x] I have at least 8 facebook pictures.
[x ] I usually go shopping once a week. (I don't have much choice xD )
[x] I love to hang out with friends.
[ x] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace. (Just a teensy bit of diamond in it, but real nonetheless)
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon.
[ ] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim.
[] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] I watch(ed) either The OC, Laguna Beach OR Desperate Housewives.
[ ] I change my profile weekly.
[ ] I have worn a shower cap.
[ ] I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic.
[ ] My cell phone might as well become a part of me.
[ ] I wear mascara everyday.
[ ] I've been or am on a diet.
[ x] Bathing suits are adorable. (I just wear a shirt over them =P )
[ ] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[ ] Big sunglasses are hot.
[] I have gotten my nails done.
[ ] I own over 10 purses.
[ ] MuchMusic is my one of my favorite channels.
[x] I like to talk about boys
[x] I love to have other people do my hair.
[x] I like to give and receive hugs from all my friends.
[] I hate bugs.
[ x?] Carnivals are so fun! 
[ ] Summer is THE best season.
[x ] My swimsuit has 2 pieces.
[x?] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor.
[x] Musicians are hot (They can be attractive, at least.)
[x ] You write me a poem and tell me I'm beautiful and I'm all yours. (Mostly. You have to act what the poem says!)
[x]I'm self-conscious.
[x...] I cry often. (I've realized I can't cry anymore. That just makes it worse on the inside, though, so I guess that counts)
[] My room smells like vanilla.
[x] My dishes get washed more than once a week. (YES O_O)
[x] I don't do sports
[ ] I HATE to run.
[x] I squeal when I am surprised (sometimes)
[] I eat dried fruit as a snack.
[x] I love romance novels. (If you consider romance books as romance novels. You know, Jane Austen xD Not the *dirty* novels)
[x] Drew Barrymore is so cute.
[ ] I dance a lot.
[ ] I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house.
[x] My hair is important.
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[] Every part of my outfit needs to match.
[x ] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends.
[x] I'd love to have a photo shoot of myself.
[ ] The price on clothes hardly matters.
[ ] I apply lipgloss 50 times a day.
[ ] I wish I were a model.
[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[ ] I wanted or have been something that was slutty on Halloween.
[ ] R&B is the best music.
[ ] I pop my collar. (EWNO!)
[] Guys with Mohawks are GROSS!
[x] Horses are beautiful
[ ] I never pay attention in school.
[x] Cats are adorable.
[x] I write my own music. (well, mostly poetry)
[x] I would love to visit Hawaii
[X!! ] Valentine's day is so cute!
[ ] White is better than black.
[ ] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black.
[x] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes.
[ ] I hate the grunge look of a beard.
[x] I love to read magazines. (Sometimes.)
[x] I love to gossip. (I like my friends to tell me what’s going on in their lives)
[ ] I love Celine Dion.
[x ] My baths are 2 hours long.
[] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned.
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[x] I like kids.
[ ] Diet drinks are the best.
[ ] I have been a vegetarian. (for a week…haha)
[ ] I refuse to eat at McDonald's.
[] I check my facebook everyday.
[x ] I have a lot of jewelry
[x] Claire[s] has cheap jewelry (Not sure if I'd call it cheap, but they ARE adorable!)
[x ] My screen name[s] has x's in them. (on other sites)
[ ] Either one of my msn names has/had <3/♥'s in them.
[x] I would never want to be the opposite sex.
[] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed

I be girly. ♥hearts♥ *flowers* *stars* *roses* 

Current Mood:
contemplative contemplative
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I just heard that Obama wants to force pro-life doctors to perform abortions. There's a petition here to stop this--please sign it:
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Yup. MY website ^_^ The new Freewebs feature made it SO easy. Only took like an hour and a half, if even that!! :-D

Guesbook comments are VERY, VERY appreciated!

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curious curious
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If there's any way to be "in love" with a song, then boy, am I there!

"Far Away," by Nickelback.

One of the best songs...EVER! I grin like a maniac when it comes on the radio and get all hyper. Yet when I play it at home from AOL Music or YouTube, I just give a huge, 'romantic' sigh. I have pretty much only girls on my list, so I'm sure you'll all know what I mean. It's just like, "Oh, wow...that's so incredibly, make-you-want-to-squeal sweet!" You know what I mean, when you just want to go, "EEE!" instead of just going, "Awww."

Because with a great song like that...you can't just say "Aww." I mean, I can't for one. Don't know about y'all. But you should all totally look it up and listen to it. Watch the video, too. Though it made Amanda and I cry when we watched it together. And I had seen it before! I don't know why I still cried, but I did! It's sweet. Beyond sweet can describe. *goes into all sorts of poetic words*

But yeah.


Check it out.

You're missing out on one of life's most important things if you don't.

How is it important?

I'unno. xD

Cause I said so? *shrugs*

Current Mood:
awake awake
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Post a picture in my comments of what you think describes me when you think about what or who I am.

Give no written explanation, just an image (or a link to an image, if you prefer).

Then, copy and paste this into your own journal and see what others think about you in pictures!


I may have Carpal Tunnel Syndrome,  so I won't be on a lot - but hey, you can't miss me too much because I'm never on anyways, right? *eyeroll*

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okay okay
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To anyone who has not seen this video, I urge you to please not ignore this post.
Please post a comment or something so I know that it's not just being passed over.

In other topics...
Amanda had an appointment today for a glucose test. It was earlier than Tirzah wakes up, so I sleep-watched Tirzah while Amanda went to the test, so that she didn't have to be awakened, and thus be fussy for the rest of the day :P

The first nearly-a-week of school has gone great. I actually enjoy it. It's going SO much faster now that I am only doing half-days of math and not getting so discouraged from it. Science is easy so far. I'm studying taxonomy xD I can recite the narrowings-down of species, etc. correctly, if I'm not mistaken...

Phylus (sp?)(animals) or Division (plants)

I half-pity those who must come up with exactly where a new species is on this ladder....

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okay okay
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 Please, I beg all of you, watch this video. It's not about fun or a band or any of those things, but it IS about what will be affecting our lives for the next 4 to 8 years. Knowing that, wouldn't you want to do what you can to make it a good 4 to 8 years? Please, please, don't let this happen....


He has said that the first bill he will pass will be to make all abortion legal. Don't think that things will change and be better than what's shown on the video.

If you can watch the baby at the end, crying and screaming, left to starve or die from fatigue, without crying yourself or feeling any sympathy....this world is doomed.
Current Mood:
angry angry
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Yes, it's August.
And I'm writing about November.
But have you the slightest of ideas how quickly the wind of time blows by?
(Wow, I can't believe I said that!!)

Anyways, I think I'm going to join NaNoWriMo this year. Actually, really, join it. Not just join, post 400 words, then delete them all in frustration. I want to actually try to DO this thing.

Hints? Tips? Facts? Sandwiches? o_o

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weird weird
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